I suppose this article is very self opinionated but then isn't that the idea of an article; to pass on one's opinion to the naive, ignorant and not so often, the blind. Anyway a line that could just as well sum up this article just as it begins - I don't care what you think. To some people being nice to others comes naturally, you smile to people as you pass, look on life as a happy joyous constant event that you must enjoy to the full by being nice to people. I dont understand these people, perhaps like Lawrence they're mentally deficient or perhaps they have been clamped somewhere painful... i do not know.

What i do know is that I don't register being nice to people as an option, I dislike people, they're stupid. For example these days the common joke seems to be to mock the slightly larger members of our community, juvenile - yes, but it makes life more interesting. Laughing at others raises one's self confidence and avoiding complacency makes you almost untouchable. You know for that five seconds you take the piss that they're inferior and that you are all big and clever. You're not, but hopefully those around you think the same so you can comfortably live in your own little world where you're god. I have this luxury, most of the time.

Other times, I get called 'harsh', i get shocked looks or murmers of disgust, but this doesn't bother me, in fact i revel in it, I enjoy people thinking i'm nasty and would even go as far as listing it under my qualities if i had to do so for some reason. I have my friends, I have my close friends, I have my family and all that shite, I don't need to be nice to people. If i want to make new friends i would do so, but i don't and i won't therefore I'm fine with what i have and i dont need anything else. Sounds fair enough yes? So therefore i reserve my right to be mean, horrible and downright abusive to anyone else i choose. It makes me feel good and I am never in the mood to deprive myself without getting something out of it.

I know if i was the unfortunate soul to be mocked by someone like myself I would not be happy, but then i'm not afraid of standing up for myself and giving back what i get. So that's why I won't accept people telling me i'm wrong, and a life living in the shadow of my own mind is one i shall never change.

and if you don't like it, then you didn't have to read this, you don't have to know me and there is still nothing you can do about it, we have already won.

Jay, at your door

Article Written by Jay
jay@theonlinenet.co.uk